They don't understand.
Why?  They ask.
It's not normal.
It's not controllable. 
It's the feeling.
The doors close on their own.
You're left in the dark.
The wind is howling, and you're heart is beating super fast.
The thought turns into a feeling.
The feeling takes over the brain,
The brain takes over the body.
The body just wants to get it out.
Anything and Everything set it off.

Pill popping pill popping always asking for more.
Don't take too many or you won't make it out the door.
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Today

I really suck with coming up with titles.
I had a really interesting day.
I visit my old high school today, and now i'm kind of missing high school.
My friend told me that "I no longer fit in there because I look to old", and that was super depressing.
It also reminded me of how many things I missed out on like all of my Senior activities, and how I didn't really try very hard there.
I always wanted to be an IB kid, but I didn't try hard enough to qualify for the program.
I always get really jealous when I talk to IB people because they are so well rounded and educated and make me feel stupid.
It's also super cool that they can attend college outside of the USA, and their coursework will transfer.

I got lectured by my parents again today.
They are upset about grades, and my life pretty much.
Honestly, I wish I would have actually done stuff to get lectured.
I don't party or drink really.
I don't do drugs.
I don't cause trouble.
I go to school.
I go to work.
I rarely hang out with people.
They yell about my phone usage.
Yes, even though we have unlimited texting they yell at me about how much I text.
My Zune is the devil.
My parents expect me to be non-social.
I can't wait to move.

I'm a very stream of conscious kind of person.
It influences a lot of my writing, and ironically it's hard for me to keep my thoughts together.
So if you see it alot you'll know why.

sleepxxdreamxxlive is the playlist of choice tonight.
i usually have interesting dreams when i sleep to this playlist.
Goodnight Everybody.

The Cruelty of The CW

This entry will be short.

All I have to say is that if you are going to make me wait almost 4 months for new episodes of a show you better not make the season finale a cliff hanger to the extreme.

So giving us the impression that one of the main characters might die and making us wait 4 months to find out

puts you number on my hit list.

Please feel free to drop dead or air new episodes of Gossip Girl earl, the latter of the two if you don't mind.

I'm Going To Try This Again

I'm a pretty big flake when it comes to blogging.  I've started many blogs, and now they take up space on the WWW.  Don't worry, I've decided to go green and help the WWW by using an old account.  I had planned out a post for tonight, but I'm going to either type it up after this one or type it tomorrow.  I just think it would be super lame if I added it in with my first post.  I guess I'll take this time to catch everybody up on what's going on in my life.  I just finished my spring semester at the CCCCD, and now I'm taking BCIS for maymester.  I'm transferring to UNT in the fall to major in Human Resource Management.  I'm so ready to go to UNT because i'm ready to finally get started with my life away from home.  I guess that I need to get these classes taken care of before I go, and I really need to make some money this summer as well.  I'm taking Business Math w/Calculus during Summer I, and then hopefully I can work 40 hour weeks up until I leave for college.  I guess I'll have to take at least 2 weeks off though because I'll need a couple of days for my cousin's wedding in Florida and then if we decide to go on a cruise I'll need more time off. 

Well I suppose I should go fold laundry and study until 11 when grades for spring come out.

Until Next Time Bloggers.